Tarot Reading for the Day

Should I stick with Web Development? Celtic Cross spread – Hanson Roberts deck

So, my tarot readings have had a long history of being scary accurate. Today is the first time I’ve done a full Celtic cross spread in a LONG time. Can we just say, “ON THE NOSE?” Very much so. I’ve printed it and plan to read it several times a day, every day.

1. Nine of Pentacles – my current situation is nice and comfy; I do enjoy my home and “garden” life; I really don’t want anything to change right now
2. Five of Pentacles – more current or crossing current – this is my greatest fear, really, and where I’m convinced I would be right now if it weren’t for my mother. It’s where I’m scared I will end up and stay for the rest of my life after she dies – with no one to help me. No one to fall back on
3. Queen of Pentacles – basis of the matter– this represents my mother, currently, and the woman I would love to be in regards to money and stability
4. I The Magician – past influence – my past is full of times I was able to rely on myself and BE successful in whatever way I chose. Back when I had faith in myself and my abilities. Before everything was clouded by depression and cynicism.
5. VII The Chariot – public image/how the situation appears – this could represent what I lack in order to succeed. Determination, motivation, action
   6. Page of Rods – immediate future – looks like I’m going to get back my enthusiasm for things. Regain my creative and enterprising faculties for a kind of rebirth – hearkening back to when I was younger (hence Page)
   7. Page of Cups – querent– this TOTALLY represents me and has been MY card in the tarot since I started reading them back in 1989. This is where I feel I always NEED to return. I lost this young, wonderful, creative, idealistic dreamer along the way of my life’s road. I NEED to get her back. Without her, I will continue to feel like my soul is dying/dead.
   8. Queen of Swords – environment– I think this represents [my friend] as an influence in my life. No-nonsense. Intelligent and strong-willed woman.
   9. Nine of Cups – conscious hopes and fears– of course, I would love it if all my wishes were to come true. This card with its fat happy man on it has always reminded me of a comfortable happy life that I want. I always see myself as a little shop keeper in my little happy life when I see this card. Wishes.
   10. Queen of Cups – final outcome – this is who I strive to be. The young Page of Cups, all grown up. Still has her dreams, her creativity, her ideals.. but they’re colored by life’s experiences which gives her a deeper and more grounded perspective. But she still listens to and relies on her heart